The Awakening

This is the place that changed my life. A place I hate but a place where I found the meaning of being alive. I had to go under flame test every day. Every day way a struggle for survival. Every hour was a fight for existance. Every minute passed like months, every second was a curse and evry breath was a burden.

It is something that no one would ever know. The reason being, my outer self is the exact contrast of my inner self. Those very close to me know me as who I am, others just know me as I want them to know me.

It was around Nov 2005 end, we were appearing for our 3rd semester papers. It was the worst phase of my life I expected to be. I was not sure whether I would be able to attend my classes for 4th sem. I was denied a loan from my bank and the college refused to help. Regrettably many of my batchmates are still unaware of the fact. However, It hurts the most when someone is known to be a good student and has to drop out after one and half years of college. The exams somehow got over. Everyone was packing for home. I dreaded my luggage bag. I knew this could very well be my last vacation. I knew I won't be returning to college.

The hostel was almost empty. I and my roommate, Suryakant Mishra, were among the countable few to leave. I had my bag packed. I wished a miracle to save my studies, my career. I knew no on could help me. I thought of ringing Pratichi, better called Sis by me, I was talking to her and within a few moments I broke down. I was crying like a kid whose most precious toy had been taken away from him. I was crying for help, I cried I didn't want to go, I cried for someone to help me.......But who could!!

I left for home that night. Reaching home I realised matters couldn't improve.

The very next afternoon I left for Kolkata. I joined a MNC BPO. I dropped out of college.

Unbelievably, I couldn't recognise myself in the mirror. I was never the same Shayantan. I was someone else. I called Him SATAN derived from ShayAnTAN.

I was working in the BPO for about two months. I had enough to pay for at least one semester. I decided to return. Fortunately , on my return to college I was offered a scholarship. That certainly made my life easier.

At the and of three years I passed out college with four job offers, all from MNCs and the highest pay package. I denied names like TCS and CTS.

That is how my life began.

People speak but I proved that Impossible is Nothing.